I think I might be getting old.....

Ok, maybe I'm not getting old, but really, I think I am!!! Next month, I will be 29 years old!!! I'll be honest, I'm kind of freaking out. I'm not sure why though, but I am. It just seems OLD! It's the last of my 20's and then I'll be entering into my 30's....which is WAY OLD....at least it always seemed like it was. 30 seriously?!?!?! When I was young, I thought by the time I was thirty I'd be a lot more settled then I am now....granted, last couple of years, I realized that I'm just fine. I've never made goals to accomplish before 30...I have always said I would think about marriage when I turn 30.....guess I need to be thinking about it huh???

But 29.....it's kind of depressing sounding. I feel like it's a pivotial age...maybe because I'm going to be thrown into my 30's. When I think of 30's, I think of responsibility. Can I really go hang out at the clubs when I'm 30?!?!?! I can barely pull all nighters now and when I do, I suffer for about a week and I'm only 28....what's 30 going to be like.

29, last of the 20's, seriously....I just turned 20 the other day, I swear.....then again my early 20's seemed ages ago....even college seemed ages ago. I spent 5 years living in Chattanooga and now I forget the names of streets and restaurants that I frequented.....and then I remind myself that it's been 5 years since I've lived there, no wonder!!! WHAT.....how could that be?!?!

29, I mean, I still get carded for R rated movies....people ask me what High School I go to! It's a compliment now. I can't even have crushes on college football players any more because they are so young.....I would be such a cougar. Some of my favorite crushes were on UT football players.....now I'm at a reasonable age to date these crushes and I would date men their age....but at the time I was like 14!!! John Hall....are you reading this?!?!?!

29, if I do talk to a guy, obviously age is going to come up and sadly the conversation generally ends with me patting them on their head and sadly telling them that I am old enough to be their mothers!!!! Even though I'm not, but might as well be!!!

29....when my mother was 29, I was 5....I was starting kindergarden...I remember my mom at 29! I see pictures of her at 29 and she looks her age.....maybe it was the 80's style.....but she looked 29.....***mom, I do not think you look old....you actually look very young for your age now, just FYI**** 29....oh my goodness....can I just hibernate?!?!

28 though, 28 has been a GREAT year....I think this is the age I would like to stay. People say that they stay 29, but forget that.....28 is the place for me. It's been a good year. Pretty much drama free, which as we know for my family the last 2 years have been somewhat of roller coasters. My sweet precious neice Anne Claire made her debut, it's been a great day. Summer days lazing on the rivers, vacations....it's been good. I've thoroughly enjoyed being 28 and I'm going to enjoy the last 49 days of being 28. Which actually seems like a long time off, but really, it's just around the corner and after that corner I'm going to be 30!!! ARGH!!!!

Maybe I can have clear concise thoughts when I'm 29 and won't be rambling anymore.......maybe